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[25 Apr 2006|04:13pm] |
so its tuesday. feels like it should be later in the week. surprisingly the first week back hasn't been sucking much.
florida was fun, for those who care. the ride there and back was hell and im never sitting in the very back seat of a pacifica for the rest of my life, but it was worth it.
theres something like 7 weeks of school left?
can we all make it?
well thats all for now.
love.
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[13 Apr 2006|11:25am] |
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I am extremely close to deleting my myspace. i just haven't yet.
i leave for florida in a few hoursss =D ahhhh so excited.
today was good, very short. n its so nice outside, not sure why i'm sitting here.
but yeah comment to be added i'll probably make this friends only eventually.
love.
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[05 Mar 2006|02:23pm] |
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myspace is obnoxious and im getting sick of it.
coming back here for a bit cause im bored.
IN THE LAST 30 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
[x] written something on your body
[x] made a wish
[x] tied your shoes
[x] eaten cake
[ ] signed a contract
[] made something explode
[ ] directly and knowingly supported the pornography industry
[x] sent something through the US mail
[x] been very angry
[] gone a day without eating
[x] watched more than three different television shows
[ ] prayed
[x] had a conversation that you considered very personally meaningful
[x] been intoxicated by any substance
[] thrown up
[ ] gotten paid
[ ] gone a night without sleeping
[ ] broken something you like by accident
[ ] envied someone very strongly
[ ] finished an artistic project
[kinda?] hated
[x] made very loud noise
[x] made noise that was too loud
[i think] given a thumbs up
[ ] agreed to go to Highland Park, CA
[ ] slept in a bed that is not, or has never been, your own
[ ] sampled
[ ] listened to Pat Benatar's "Love Is A Battlefield"
[notquite] been drunk
[ ] smoked pot
[xx] kissed a member of the opposite sex
[ ] rode in a taxi
[ ] been dumped
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight
[ ] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[ ] snuck out of my parent's house
[ ] been arrested
[ ] made out with a stranger
[ ] stole something from my job
[ ] went on a blind date
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] had a crush on teacher
[ ] been to europe
[ ] skipped school
DO YOU
[ ] have a bf
[ ] have a gf
[eh, you could call it that] have a crush
[by some people] feel loved
[at times] feel lonely
[ha once in awhile] feel happy
[ ] hate yourself
[x] have a dog
[x] have your own room
[ ] listen to rap
[x] listen to rock
[ ] listen to soul
[tehe] listen to techno
[ ] listen to reggae
[ ] listen to country
[x] paint your nails
[x] have more than one best friend
[x] get good grades
[x] play an instrument
[ ] have slippers
[ ] wear boxers
[brown] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue
[ ] like the color yellow
[ ] cyber
[ ] claim
[x] like to read
[x] like to write
[more like medium] have long hair
[ ] have short hair
[x] have a cell phone
[its a piece of crap though ] have a laptop
[ ] have a pager
ARE YOU
[you ] ugly
[tell ] pretty
[me ] ok
[ x] bored
[no its sunday. and he won't tell me whats wrong] happy
[haha no] bilingual
[x] white
[ ] black
[ ] asian
[ ] mexican
[ ] short
[ ] undecided on your height
[ish] tall
[ ] grounded
[ ] sick
[x] lazy
[x] single
[ ] taken
[more like just waiting] looking
[ ] not looking
[ ] talking to someone
[ ] IMing someone
[ ] scared to die
[ ] tired
[ ] sleepy
[x] annoyed
[ ] hungry
[x] thirsty
[ ] on the phone
[ ] in your room
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[sadly yes= its 2:30] in your pjs
[x] ticklish
[x] listening to music
[ ] homophobic
[ ] racist
[ ] sexist
interesting.
not looking forward to the next week whatsoever. school can die.
comment if you agree.
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[19 Sep 2005|08:03pm] |
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lj=dead. :(
i dunno is it?
no one comments. last update maybe?
i hate you.
&&i hate how thats a lie.
peace.
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[17 Sep 2005|09:58pm] |
im so sick of all the lying thats been going on. just tell me the fucking truth, i can take it i promise. most of the time when people lie to me i find out anyway so just save yourself and tell me whats really going on. im sick of listening to people who i know are talking compleat bullshit. just don't lie. its pointless. and go ahead and think this is all about you, cause it probably is.
&&& i am sick of listening to that song over and over again, its starting to get really depressing.
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| sun eyed girl. |
[13 Sep 2005|05:59pm] |
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this week has been the shit (and its only tuesday)
josh you are awesome.
im thinking about breaking down and just wearing sweatpants to school =P. if only it wasn't so fucking hot.
i am such a terrible listener. and i never used to be. it fucking sucks like all of sudden i'm just not paying attention to anything. even when just people are talking to me. i feel like such an idiot. but whatever. i'll live.
i need a new pair of flip flops. =(
and i want sea monkeys.
i love you allllllll.
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| fist pounding on a vending machine, toy diamond ring stuck on her finger. |
[10 Sep 2005|05:02pm] |
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school actually isn't that bad. im enjoying myself for the most part. all my classes are pretty sweet and i just love everybody. im finally happy and it is awesome.
the football game was sweet. justonegreatnight.
my brothers moving out finally. i dunno what to think about it. i guess its cool cause i really can't stand him, but now my parents can't be distracted in any way. i guess i'll live.
i miss summer. =(
but im getting over it. things are improving all the time.
i gotta go im off to ari's to hang with her n josh.
comment if you'd like.
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[05 Sep 2005|01:51pm] |
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last day of summer and im sitting here doing nothing because nobody is answering their phones.
up north was boring but ok.
hung out with ali.
we went skinny dipping last night and it was freezing as hell.
i do not want to go to school tomorrow. :(
i need to go do something im going crazy.
love you all.
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| you may find yourself, behind the wheel of a large automobile. |
[29 Aug 2005|03:32pm] |
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beck: we live again. |
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leaving for up north on thursday.
gonna be there all weekend. kinda pissed. but ali will be there and... derek (!)
and the going back to school bit doesn't help any.
my schdules still fucked so don't get your hopes up on seeing it.
later masterbaters
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[25 Aug 2005|11:30am] |
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existentialism on prom night. straylightrun |
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yesterday was a sweet day. hung out with jordan in the morning for a bit then jesi came over. AND HER HAIR IS FUCKING GORGEOUS. ahh im jealous.
but we chilled. [the good kind] and it was fun.
pictureesss....
( we were bored, and listening to fall out boy so.. here you go. )
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[23 Aug 2005|07:52pm] |
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mm so im back from up north. again. didn't want to go but i was forced. i've had enough kenny rogers and paul simon and billy joel to last me a lifetime. (meaning my grandmother came with us.)
good news is i purchased garden state and now i plan on watching it relilgiously.
kates party was fun. i miss her like crazy. i met a ton of people there. it was a good time.
ari's coming over (=D) i gotta go.
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[19 Aug 2005|01:50pm] |
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hmm.
lets recap shall we.
THE CONCERT WAS EFFIN AMAZING. the all american rejects are awesome. i have a new respect for them. tyson is the hottest thing ever. he was hilarious. so i slept over at stephs tuesday with andy and that was really fun. we ate a lot of food and talked for a long time.
earlier on tuesday i went to jordans with ari n jessi and we swam in his lake. it was fun. but then jesi sliced her hand open on a clam and i had to leave to go to the concert.
but wednsday i did nothing.
thursday i hung out with katie and that was really fun cause i haven't seen her in forever.
and this morning i hung out with jordan and that was very very fun.
and i think im hanging out with karly later. so.. party?
i think yes.
school soon. ew.
love.
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| i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now. |
[15 Aug 2005|01:33pm] |
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i was sick of looking at my old entry.
im writing this story called 'i love you like stains on my t-shirt' its good i like it.
me n jessi are hanging out with hot boys today.
or so we say.
my anut and uncle and cousin john, were here this weekend. my cousin is cool. we talked for a long time about everything.
dream cruise saturday. tell me if you're going. and if you;re going. look for me, my dads car will be parked at mcdonalds. =D
catch ya later masterbater.
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[11 Aug 2005|05:23pm] |
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i know i already updated today but this is a picture post.
tehe. myself and ali.
( clickk )
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[11 Aug 2005|02:50pm] |
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all american rejects: it ends tonight |
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and now to top EVERYTHING off.
guess what.
my brothers going back into therapy.. maybe he'll try and kill himself again. oh goody.
and our whole freaking family gets to meet with a freaking counselour for whatever reasons. oh goody.
this is going to be a bitch.
on the plus side.
me n steph n andy are going to see All American Rejects in like 4 days. yeaaahhh. pretty excited.
and thats about it.
im off to eat cold pizza.
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[08 Aug 2005|11:12pm] |
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everything is fucking changing.. like crazy. and at first it was awesome but now its just sorta starting to suck. its almost bittersweet. thats what my summer has been. fucking bittersweet.
one minute it seems like its everything.. and its all there is to life so everythings ok. but then i start thinking.. and these random people that supposably 'care about me' tell me that its nothing. so many different people are telling me who to be.
so maybe i'm a bit confused and don;t wanna think about it. but then i just feel worthless and empty and like im no one.
because so much is changing i don't know who i am.
and i thought going away for two weeks would help but that just made it worse and now im... i dunno. stuck.?
and i feel like theres nothing i can do.
because half the time everythings so boring so i try to be different and its fun for awhile but then i start missing what everything used to be like. that's why i fucking write so much. i hate the stupid world i'm living in so i make up new ones. and i guess i'm pretty good at it but yeah right it will get me anywhere. and its like the only thing that hasn't changed.
i know for sure i've lost a very important person this summer and it sucks. because that person is amazing and i'm going to miss... that person. =P i know it was my fault that he's not talking to me but i figured theres nothing i can do about it now.
i miss everyone. i miss my small circle of random friends that kept me sane all through school. if that was even possible. i just miss it.
whatever.
im a loser i'm venting in my eljay.
don't read this then leave me shit that won't help any.
you don't even have to comment. i just had to write it
good night. <33
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[07 Aug 2005|08:33pm] |
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SWING LIFE AWAY. |
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so im back.
and holy shit everyone has my spaces. lol crazy.
well i had the time of my life.
really miss everyone though =/
working at ali's grandpas canoe livery was amazing. we met this kid kris and he totally like made me think a lot about myself and really made me feel shitty about myself. cause he lives in this huge party town and hes compleately clean. and he told us how his parents justdon't care what he does and his dad is always drunk and it was just so sad. he was really good looking too. we went with him and his friend jade and jumped off a 20 foot bridge into the river at like 830 one night. it was freezing. but jade gave me his hat cause i said i liked it. but i won't go on and on and bore you. that weekend changed me though.. let me tell you.
i learned how to water ski. i fell and sliced my knee open though it hurts like hell.
i got to drive the van around my neighborhood with my daddy. it was sweet.
me n ali made drinks and went swimming while our parents were at the bud bash across the lake. then this kid on his jet ski pulls up 'heyy ladies' abd we were like compleately out of it and i don't even remember half the conversation. he's 18 though, and apparently we're 15. he was hot but super annoying cause he was all over us and dude.. you're 18. all i've met this summer are small town party boys, its kinda annoying.
SO GLAD TO BE HOME.
which guy won kept? i was keeping up with that show but then missed the finale. damnit. lol
comment and let me know what i've been missing.
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thats right. me n shelby hung out. lol.
it was a good time.
i had missed her.
i also hung out with shayna on monday.
that was fun even though her power went out.
we talked for like 2 hours straight.
we're gonna go bowling soon.
yesterday i hung out with katie and it was cool seeing her.
we made low carb muffins and they were good.
today im hanging out with ari and who knows what else.
( posting this because i would feel bad if i didn't. )
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[17 Jul 2005|05:26pm] |
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lets recap shall we?
so on thursday jessi slept over
that was a good time
let me tell you. =)
friday i went to her casa and josh came over
he's a cool kid.
josh- whats your number?
me- jessi whats my number? har har.
saturday i went to the movies with sam, shayna, alli n chelsea.
it was so fun seeing everybody again and the charlie and the chocolate factory was soo good.
i like it how we bought food after the movie then sat on the floor in the lobby.
i also liked it how sam told his parents united artists even though we were at mjr.
today i hung out with chelsea =D
we went to the beach and to market plaza and it was a good time.
oh how i miss that girl.
tomorrow im going out to lunch with my grandma then hopefully plans with shayna. tuesday i think im going on the boat so if anyone wants to come with let me know.
also. im going up north this weekend so if anyones interested in spending the weekend with moi. let me know =)
i need a boyfriend.
byeee.
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